About my latest relapse and other things

It’s 4am, I slept for 3 hours and now I can’t go back to sleep. Curing alcohol with alcohol, although I don’t get hangovers I have a headache from the combo of alcohol+little sleep. I know this is bad. I know it is. So why do I do this to myself? I honestly don’t know. […]

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Not so ladylike

How far have I come…perfect little girl drinking wine out of a tetrapak that she could only afford because of all her boyfriends beer bottle deposits (he doesn’t have a problem he just collects all the bottles forever so it’s not unusual that I get up to 2€ from it). I always try to bring […]

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Still alive

So here I am again…lol. Like I’ve probably said a thousand times I have no idea why it’s so hard to write on here regularly!? I pissed at myself about this tbh because I dream of having a blog that I write on daily, that people actually read and I too get tired of blogs […]

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Eternally fat

I feel so awful right now. It’s crazy how my body perception keeps fluctuating and how rapidly i can go from feeling skinny to feeling fat. Fat fat fat….fat everywhere. Just too much of everything, filling out way too much space. A bmi of 16.2 is not exactly the prototypical anorexic skinny body, even if […]

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Emptiness and Ethanol

I’ve been feeling so empty these days….I have summer holiday until 4th Sept or something and meanwhile I should finish my papers and study for some final exams in autumn. I have zero motivation. All I want is get trashed and get through the weeks before fashion school starts. Very likely I’m putting too much hope […]

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Failing gloriously at uni -.-

Fuck this shit i’m sitting in my semantics class and i was so proud for handing in that fucking homework, turns out they’re talking about something completely different again, there was another homework which i didn’t do (also i have no clue what any of those symbols we’re supposed to work with mean). This sucks, […]

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