Anxiety to go back to College

I’m feeling awful. Today is the last day before classes start again and I don’t feel like going back and seeing all the others again. Trying to please everyone in order to still become popular somehow and to not be an outsider because I exclude myself from all sorts of communication. I’m scared of the […]

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BDD (Body Dismorphic Disorder)

First, a few definitions by scientific research and eating disorder organisations: “Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) is often called the ‘imagined ugliness’ disorder. […] excessive, disproportionate concerns about a minor flaw, or as recurrent, anxiety-provoking thoughts about an entirely imagined defect […] most frequently focused on the head and face, but may involve any body part. [Sufferers] […]

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Today after therapy

We didn’t talk about anything today but bodies and feeling our bodies etc etc. I actually wanted to talk about different things but that’s not how therapy works, it can turn out anyway every session and you certainly can’t plan it. Anyways I felt awful and disgusted with myself afterwards. I wish I could just […]

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Memories

Hi. I browsed through my old blog (2012-2015) and saved all the posts….lol, pretty embarassing looking at old pics especially those where I thought I looked skinny and healthy but maybe that’s just how I see it now with my BDD back and all. There was some really nice and useful stuff too though, amazing […]

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